外 头 的 人

有 时 启 开 了 部 落 格 网 页, 心 里 很 想 写 片 文 章

感 觉 有 了...... 可 是 那 是 一 种 迷 茫 的 感 觉

脑 里 浮 过 很 多 的 想 法, 也 想 回 了 很 多 的 故 事

心 里 酸 酸 的, 感 触 良 多 却 就 是 打 不 出 来

或 者 有 些 东 西 还 是 自 己 最 清 楚, 很 难 用 任 何 方 式 向 外 头 的 人 讲

即 使 跟 他 们 讲, 那 味 道 也 不 会 到 位




既 然 如 此 倒 不 如 把 机 关 掉, 把 那 感 觉 带 进 梦 里

说 不 定 里 头 等 着 我 的 不 是 一 个" 外 头 的 人"......

nothing STAYs the same

when we were child we made good friends in primary school

and a forever friendship swore

we learned new stuffs, we played games and joked a lot

sweats were flying high as our mood were

we never thought of stop,yea not even crossed our minds

it just like we never got tired






but nothing can beat the TIME

it just keeps pushing and pushing, till all the laugh and tears faded away

and no traces left

a friend used to be is now just another stranger

someone we wouldn't care even life or dead

as the law of nature applied :

nothing stays the same

Grown Up

I am now eighteen, yes eighteen, YES I AM

stepped out of school now i am on my own

no friends got my back, no teachers guide my direction

it's just gone, gone......all gone

it's only me now and will be just me facing all the fate




hey boy, strengthen your heart as there's no turning back

just move on and you will get used to it, soon, very soon


hey girl, no tears please, a weak one is meant to be vanised, GAME OVER

just move on and you will get used to it, soon, very soon




the childhood was beautiful yes i know but no point missing it

it makes you vulnerable...... exposed

out there people talking about money, money and money

dream means shit and no one gonna take it serious

so just let it buried deep down the earth, hopefully never found out again



it's the price for growing up

as we grown up we pay back little by little

till we end up with nothing

Memories

in the night, i just cant close my eye

dark sky always rewind the memories of us, sweet and bitter

we used to sing together

we used to dance together

we used to laugh together




but dont know since when only complaints and quarrels left

we criticized each other

we praised sarcastically

we made each other cry, just this time

it is not tears of happiness but tears that will lead to break up

soon or later



in the night, i just cant close my eye

dark sky always rewind the memories of us, sweet and bitter

i miss our love song

i miss the step we had on the floor

i miss your smile

i miss you, baby



memories, memories, memories

it hurts but i like it

i will miss the memories we had together

SPM is gone MORE to come

SPM is yesterday story today is another new chapter

yesterday when i walked out the exam hall i felt damn relieved and free-of-stress

it was like i got my freedom back,my mind was flying high in the sky with unstoppable crazy thinking of what to do after exam

i was shouting happily together with Mun Chun and it was the soar of MerdeKa !

frankly chinese esei probably the best paper i answered

i felt satisfied of what i wrote and it must be in the top 10 esei i ever wrote

the esei title is "吃苦" and i meant what i wrote:

no need to shame no need to shy and no need to hide the fact that you are from poor family

as you are working your ass hard to make it better from days to days

that's something to be proud of !





today i went for job interview and i made a mistake

the human resource manager ask me when can i start to work

and immediately "anxiety" attacked me for no reason......my mind went blank

to show my eagerness towards this job i said "tomorrow"

then here it goes, she asked if i got the white shirt, black pants, black shoes which are compulsory

oh yeah i don't have it ! now my mind bring me back to consciousness

so i said next Tuesday as i had to go to school on Monday

eventually the "deal" was done




BUT..........BUT

when i was in the bus i think and i think

i promised to Yong Sheng for outing on Friday and education fair on Thursday and Kelvin Sir for running event on Sunday

Oh my goodness !!!

"i am in trouble !" i shouted loud in heart





then back in home, it was time to solve the messes i created from my careless move

i called YONg SHeng and Kelvin to say sorry for not attending

and now i have to look for somebody to replace me to attend the education fair




wow today is a "WoW" day


i will work hard for my future gambeteh

good luck to all of you !